September 29, 2009

To them, I'm thankful

Stick gave me two pair of socks and a starry shoelaces for my birthday.
The Yeo's sisters and Andrew gave me a pair of really cute flip flops.
Mayling, Rachel, Julian, Yun Kat & others gave me an awesome crazy wild night.
Kwong Yue and his bunch of friends were energetic and adorably funny.
John was really thoughtful to willingly spend his evening just for my birthday.

Okaylah. Old already lar. Sigh.


September 26, 2009

The Big 2-0 partays

May Ling and Rachel took me to Changkat for dinner. Ciccio :) And our journey to Ciccio was hectic and crazy. With the google map and notes-taking, switching on the light to read the notes and me who constantly asked oi.left or right?. May Ling and Rachel paid for dinner and surprised me with a tiramisu cake at the end. I was literally shock when the waitress came and started singing Happy Birthday. I screamed, and shocked the waitress. Haha.The cake was uberly delicious! The texture of the cake was so smooth and indeed one of the best tiramisu cake I've tasted. Rachel's boyfriend, Julian came and took us to Poppy later on. Again, to celebrate my birthday & Nicholas (Julian's friend) birthday.. There were like what, 15 of us there. Of course la we minum and goyang. No more details :D

And then the boys started throwing people into the pool. As much as you do not want to be thrown into the pool, you have no choice because all of the boys are strong and muscular. So crazy. Except for the part where those Indian parking guards forced us to pay RM30 just so that we could get out of the parking lot. 

Twas a wild night :)

Fetched Yun Kat and MayLing from Kelana Jaya. Head for dinner and then MOS. Met up with MayLing's cousin and his big bunch of friends. Left MOS at 2am and continue the night with Cocoa Banana. VIP some more, cause one of our friend's uncle owns Cocoa Banana. So Yun Kat, May Ling and I went gila again. Yun Kat got a combo from me; stepped and scratched him like several times. I feel so bad, but it was funny. So, sorry lar. Haha :P And then randomly, all those Cocoa Banana-ians sang Happy Birthday. They went all WOOOHHHOOOO, and PHEEWWIIITT and *applause* . I was like WAHH :) and I got this bouquet from one of the bartenders. The night ended with me staying over at May Ling's place. Ahh, I love my them larh.
2 straight nights in a row. fuuuhh.

John and I went to the Curve to celebrate my birthday again. He decided to treat me for a feast in Bubba Gump. Such a dear :) And then we went for movie; The Ugly Truth.  So nice of him for willingly spending his time with me. Big hug to the John.

September 14, 2009

Clinging to every little thing

i want to know that i had already tried my hardest before i truly let go of everything, simply because i want no regrets. is this really the end? or am i being overly emotional and melancholic about this? i long for the latter. tell me that all this means nothing to you and i'll stop hoping. because hope is the only thing that kept me believing, till now. - i sat myself down, isolating myself from the others. wanting to slid it in between my fingers. wanting to placed it between my cracked, pale lips, inhale it, and patiently exhale, exhale all that sorrow. then, i'll really know the joy? of it. I, still want to try.

but then again, why am i filling myself with these unnecessary grief. so overrated right? haha.
no, i'm not being exaggeratedly emo. pffft. i just choose to practice self-censorship anymore.  

attended a workshop at 95% last sunday. it was a copy-writing workshop. leonard and two of our seniors were there as well. this fairly paled looking hand stretched upon us, greeting us with a warm Hello, we haven't officially met yet. I'm Janet Lee, and you must be Stephanie and Leonard. aah. zee multi-award winner Janet Lee :) such a warm, jovial and humble person. that workshop which lasted for 3 hours really gave me an insight on what copy-writing and advertising are all about. i truly learned a lot from her and the others.

pictures taken after lunch. inspired by zheng the joo :)

the academy

the street
the apek

the brothers
Listening to: Bruises by Chairlift

September 11, 2009

The world I know seems peculiar

I like the list of acoustic songs I am slowly collecting now. I like how the strumming of the guitar and the gentle paced melody makes me feel calm. Everything fits even better when Jack Johnson sings. Sigh. I have been a zombie for the past week. I shall not fret about it because I know it's all worth it in the end :) I will step up and start shining. It's my time now. And more sleepless night to come because I want everything to be perfect. Every morning my eyes sting because it demands for more rest. But then again, my perseverance will reward me.  Two essays, one quiz, one major presentation and shooting/editing video awaits me next week. I am somewhat excited about it? :)

This semester is so so larh. I have been hopping around the different cliques in my class. This gang, and that gang, and then this gang again. At least I know there's some good classmates around, even when your closest friend decided to turn his back on you, even after all the effort. Oh well, people change. Even if you think you know that person inside out, they still change. The trust, the love, the bond, the memories. Now, I learn to say goodbye to everything I knew.

I want to smack you into pieces and plant your head at Mars.  If you really enjoy talking bout me, go ahead and broadcast it live on the cable then. Why wasting time telling it to others and then play in angel in front of me. Err hello, please don't act like you really know me when you really don't  And please, if you think you're  blessed with a very pretty face, you need to dig your brains out. The worst is when you really open your mouth and started yapping. It's really annoying. I mean have you tried listening to yourself? I'm sure you didn't because you even look like you don't own a mirror. Stop all the innocence act  & words you enjoy telling to  every stranger just to make yourself look good. Don't you get tired talking trash bout me? or even talking bout me? Well, I cannot blame you if you don't, because that's all you're good at. You have no idea how much I would love to not loath you. But every single day, you made it even harder for me to not loath you. My hand should have landed on your face previously, when you were so emotional and had fund spilling the entire blames on me.And I did nothing, not even a single defend from my side. Let me remind you just in case you forgot what you did/ or even still not realise. all the trash talk, the twisted fact, the gossip, the bullshit lies, the cynical remarks. A round of applause for you for being a wonderful manipulator. Sorry, if you think I am writing this out of jealousy, err hell no. You are the last person I would envy. This finally comes out because you are just that loathsome and urggh to me. I don't mind even if this takes me a step closer to hell. I just regretted that I failed to defend myself when I had to because I was trying to be bigger person, the understanding one. But now, you're stepping all over me.
I have never loath/dislike anyone to this extent before. You definitely broke the record by being the first. T here, I honor you with a ticket to Mars. I beg you with all my might to take it.Forgiveness has never took me this long, and this hard.You truly provided me a challenge in the mannerism of forgiveness. 

I need sleep. Another sleepless week to come. My eyes get smaller everyday.
Yen can do it, hopefully.