There goes another year

The birthday was, err awfully different this year.
The family forgot. It rarely happens in the family, but yes, they forgot.
Funny, no?
Of course, I did not cry silently to myself. Blame their excessively tight schedule.
They were really really busy. Did I emphasize REALLY?

But of course, the boyfriend, best friend and close friends made it all better :)
Well, at least some close friends.
There's no other way to thank you all
but to wish all of you a many happy in return : )

hugs*

And I've been dating assignments since holidays started. The critique, the presentation, the report and yada yada.
Glasses are getting thicker and the bum got wider.
Thanks to the excessive hours of staring at the laptop. *curse silently*

I desperately want to torture the porcupine head :(
It's been two weeks, and it's killing me.

Go away you little sick bug.

I feel sick.
Sick. Sick.
My head fells heavy, and all my stomach asking for is to barf.
My heart itches to cough.
My throat longs for water yet, it feels like shit when you swallowed it down.
My feet feels cold. I'm cold.
And I look too fair that I loathed it.
Again, I feel like barfing.
I"m turning older.
I look horrible.
I feel fat.
And I really feel awful.

:(

Finally, I replied one of your many tags

♥If you could spend one ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on?
err. nothing really : )

♥ What is your most favorite thing to do?
err. Reading and allow my imagination rule over me : )

♥ What kind of news do you read?
All. I don't really have a choice you see : |

♥ What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
err. nothing. Because I love everything I have right now and it would be selfish of me to give them up just so I could get what I wanted : )

♥ Is there someone in your heart right now?
Yes : )

♥ Do you believe you can survive without money?
Yes : ) err. Actually, no : | gee, what was I thinking.

♥ What are you afraid to lose the most?
My loved ones. and myself.

♥ What do you feel like doing right now?
Hugging : )

♥ If there's someone that you love,would you confess to him/her?
Depends on who that someone is.

♥ List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Indescribable. She's my best friend for more than a decade : )

♥ What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Nothing much really. I don't expect anything. Just be nice :D

♥ What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
errr. It depends on who that person is.

♥ If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Nothing. I feel sick eating too much of the same thing.

♥ If you had a choice to be rich or happy,which one would you pick?
Happy, duh.

♥ If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Me talking too much. and yes, my inability to express

♥ Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
myself i guess.

♥ How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
old.

♥ What is the one thing you love about yourself?
i can't think of any.

♥ If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world,what would it be?
knowledge : )

♥ 7 Tags
Iezu, Michelle, Edmund, Kal, Leonard, Chong Ren, Maxi

Paintball or Painball

Altogether, I got myself 6 bruises, and I'm darn proud of it :)
I would die to go again.
:D
Players consist of Ken, Boon, Justin, Edmund, Catherine, Sab and your's truly :]
And much credits to Justin's Myvi and Edmund's Vios for driving us there and everywhere else.

Haooy 19th, love! :)

Happy 19th Su Lin!!
Sorry, I could not be there for you, hugged you and screamed HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I wish nothing but the best for you.
You became part of me from the moment we held hands and pinky swear that we'll be friends.
And that little pinky swear had our friendship lasted for more than a decade (:
There are no words that I could think of to describe this golden friendship you furnish me with.
Have a wonderful birthday.
And you know
I love you, bestie :]

never near there

For the gazzilions time, she thought she could be
their entry of fame, their piece of pride.
Yet also for the gazzilions time, her thought disappoint her
Each day, she prays for this agony to end
She tries and tries so hard and
all its left of her is nothing but sorrow and doubts
She smiled wide when she was drowned with all the melancholy
She laughed her tears out when her heart actually summons for nothing
but trust, hope, faith and love
All these time
She learn nothing but to only run away
Run, run
as far as her feet and heart would instruct her to
And as she runs, the wind and breeze
which brushes upon her pale face
spoke the language of guilt, solitude, insecurity, regrets, hatred, sorry, dejection.
She stopped,
and cried.
Then, it appeared to be just another chapter of a downhearted paperback
Read and long forgotten.

She is extremely capable of
maintaining her facade
Her heart beats for everyone.
except hers
It breathes for everyone
except hers.

It takes her to places she didn't want to go
Their voice,
so potent that it haunts her every minute
and it became the soundtrack of her life.

Me Against the World

I did not change.
I just haven't finishing disclosing.
:)


I rise up again when I fall hard.
Even if there is no one there to catch me,
I will still stand tall.

I will fight even when the world is against me.

I want to go to the seaside
because I fell in love with it:]