October 19, 2008

No, I'd wish I was

Too much that it's overpowering me inside out.
This feeling is way beyond words; beyond description.

Must do
#1: Grow thinner. Lose weight :|
#2: Get a HD for most of my assignments.
#3: Restrict from all favorite food.
#4: Be a better student, girlfriend, daughter, sister, friend, best friend.
#5: Lose at least two sizes.
#6: Less emo-ness. More smiles.
#7: Slimmer body.
#8: Strive to be a better communication student.
#9: No carbs and fried food.
#10: Better relationships with people :/

It is not as if that I am unhappy. I am. Very much instead (:
I would not trade this very life for anything.
The contentment within me is indescribable.

You, me
We, you.
Yet, I still feel the emptiness.
I saw the day, and hoped for tomorrow.

That love in my soul
the one that makes me write
and pour out those false indignities
that caress my heart and mind
for after all I've been through
stars have its moments and then they die

Understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this is who I am.

3 comments:

  1. so many of your "must do" list involves growing thinner... u on the big size meh? if ur big... wat am i? dam... u are ok ge la... stay happy ok, smile always! =)

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  2. hey kuang yau! (: of you're not big. you are perfectly fine. in fact, you grew thinner (:

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  3. then stop asking urself to grow thinner! ur fine! i'm so much bigger than u ok! so if u say i'm fine, then u must be better than fine, which is... GREAT!

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