No, I'd wish I was

Too much that it's overpowering me inside out.
This feeling is way beyond words; beyond description.

Must do
#1: Grow thinner. Lose weight :|
#2: Get a HD for most of my assignments.
#3: Restrict from all favorite food.
#4: Be a better student, girlfriend, daughter, sister, friend, best friend.
#5: Lose at least two sizes.
#6: Less emo-ness. More smiles.
#7: Slimmer body.
#8: Strive to be a better communication student.
#9: No carbs and fried food.
#10: Better relationships with people :/

It is not as if that I am unhappy. I am. Very much instead (:
I would not trade this very life for anything.
The contentment within me is indescribable.

You, me
We, you.
Yet, I still feel the emptiness.
I saw the day, and hoped for tomorrow.

That love in my soul
the one that makes me write
and pour out those false indignities
that caress my heart and mind
for after all I've been through
stars have its moments and then they die

Understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this is who I am.

I became 39

I blew candles worth 39 years of age that day (:
Sorry Boon, I accidentally blew yours. lol

And I heart them all who made it happened.
especially the porcupine head ;)

There goes another year

The birthday was, err awfully different this year.
The family forgot. It rarely happens in the family, but yes, they forgot.
Funny, no?
Of course, I did not cry silently to myself. Blame their excessively tight schedule.
They were really really busy. Did I emphasize REALLY?

But of course, the boyfriend, best friend and close friends made it all better :)
Well, at least some close friends.
There's no other way to thank you all
but to wish all of you a many happy in return : )

hugs*

And I've been dating assignments since holidays started. The critique, the presentation, the report and yada yada.
Glasses are getting thicker and the bum got wider.
Thanks to the excessive hours of staring at the laptop. *curse silently*

I desperately want to torture the porcupine head :(
It's been two weeks, and it's killing me.

Go away you little sick bug.

I feel sick.
Sick. Sick.
My head fells heavy, and all my stomach asking for is to barf.
My heart itches to cough.
My throat longs for water yet, it feels like shit when you swallowed it down.
My feet feels cold. I'm cold.
And I look too fair that I loathed it.
Again, I feel like barfing.
I"m turning older.
I look horrible.
I feel fat.
And I really feel awful.

:(