No, I'd wish I was

Too much that it's overpowering me inside out.
This feeling is way beyond words; beyond description.

Must do
#1: Grow thinner. Lose weight :|
#2: Get a HD for most of my assignments.
#3: Restrict from all favorite food.
#4: Be a better student, girlfriend, daughter, sister, friend, best friend.
#5: Lose at least two sizes.
#6: Less emo-ness. More smiles.
#7: Slimmer body.
#8: Strive to be a better communication student.
#9: No carbs and fried food.
#10: Better relationships with people :/

It is not as if that I am unhappy. I am. Very much instead (:
I would not trade this very life for anything.
The contentment within me is indescribable.

You, me
We, you.
Yet, I still feel the emptiness.
I saw the day, and hoped for tomorrow.

That love in my soul
the one that makes me write
and pour out those false indignities
that caress my heart and mind
for after all I've been through
stars have its moments and then they die

Understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this is who I am.

I became 39

I blew candles worth 39 years of age that day (:
Sorry Boon, I accidentally blew yours. lol

And I heart them all who made it happened.
especially the porcupine head ;)